I admit that I have not been immune to female body issues. It's unfortunate that I live in a society in which women's bodies and faces are so heavily scrutinized and picked at, it seems impossible to be happy with just the way you are. As I started my journey into the no makeup routine for 8 months now, I've felt pretty comfortable and confident with a bare face.
My body on the other hand is another issue. Or is it? I was born lucky, with a somewhat minimal maintenance body, and a thin frame. I had no problems with my frame until I turned 30 and then everything started to change. I thought to myself I should be so lucky to fill out a little more and become more womanly so. However, Instagram made me feel bad about my body.
Yes, my beloved Instagram. It's not to say that the work out guru Kayla Itsines has had a negative impact. She's a great motivator, has a loyal following of women who work out and achieve incredible results. Heck, my own cousin who regularly appears on TV (a work out fiend and mother of 2) follows her. It's just that by liking some of her inspirational posts, Instagram now like to add to the mix of "Transformation Tuesday" of other before & after photos in my feed. I started to feel self-conscious of my non existing abs. Flabs. Not abs.
What's funny is that my stomach is the only part of my body that I dislike. I'm fine with everything else. When put into perspectives, it sounds so incredibly petty and silly to dislike one thing, but there you have it. So I've had fits and starts with a workout plan but after a while, let's face it, unless I have serious health issues, I don't think there's an urgent need for me to work out.
I've abandoned working out and I'm ok with that. I'm not vegan and I don't always eat 100% healthy, though I avoid most fast food tropes like McDonald's, and I try not to buy packaged goods. It's always a struggle to eat healthier, but I've gotten much better at it since I turned 30 and changed my life around in cooking more for myself.
Women are so harsh on themselves and others. It's hard enough dealing with every day problems, why exacerbate it with body issues? I've gained a couple of pounds and I know I'll never go back to the rail thinness that I was in my teens and 20s. I'm trying to love what I've become. I mean I've already accepted the gray hairs, the slight wrinkles, and the bare face, why not a slightly flabby stomach? I'm not 21 anymore. But I still get carded at the SAQ - so there's an up side, right?
All this to say that as much as I appreciate Kayla's army of fantastic transformations, work out life simply isn't for me. I don't want to concern myself with the way I look unless it's seriously impacting my health. I get that her workouts also transform your self-confidence, but her way isn't the only way to build confidence. It's a mindset. It's the way you look at your life. Some people need directions, but I think I'll work on my mental health for body issues rather than a physical one.
So here's to the women who are comfortable with themselves and are fine with the way they look. It's one less thing to worry about. It's less gym membership worries and it's more carrying yourself with confidence in a bikini when you're 70 years old and not give a crap about anyone else. As I get older, I want to grow more confident with the way I am and really not sweat the small stuff. Such is the life of a perfectly imperfect person.